May the weather choose for me
If I die or if I live
May rain force tears from eyes
While thunder forces screams and cries
Flashes of white on the sky and smatterings of red on me
May the weather dictate who I am who I’ve been
May sun make me burn
And may a flood drown my soul
May weather be my dictator
For I no longer have control
Bloody streaks on the tiled floor
Dead again like I was before
Staining all with my reddened hands
Nothing compares to my bleeding bones
And down my body every blood drop rolls
The way I died was the same again and I’ve seen the light
It flickers now and then but it lures me to hell
And at the gates I fall in a bloody pool
I’m a mess and I’m broken
And I’m bleeding and bruised
But my minds still alive like a big cauldron
Bubbling boiling alive with ambition
I just wish my heart and soul would be that way too
You work so hard for so long
You build a wall so high
You build foundations so deep
Then when they come it’s gone
It can disappear and tumble in seconds
Crashes and burns and dies
It’s like what’s happening to you inside
Your soul is on fire and your heart can’t take this pain
So let’s get out what we got out before
Let’s do what we did once again
Let’s make your tears run with blood
Let’s make your blood salty with tears
The world may be crashing and burning
But you can still slit open your chest
To finally know if your heart is beating
The tears I cry are blood red,
And they stain my pale skin,
The tears I cry run down me,
And drip off of my chin,
The tears I cry are painful,
They keep me awake at night,
The tears I cry are bloody,
With the demons in my mind,
The tears I cry are pouring,
Like a torrent that can’t be stopped,
The tears I cry are blood red,
And they’ll never ever stop.
I haven’t felt that feeling on my skin
In so many days and oh what long long days they have been.
I haven’t needed what only I can do
Until today when all my old wounds became new.
I wouldn’t wish this on anyone
The dreams I used to have are dead and gone.
I love this feeling that I’ve missed so much
Now while I’m bleeding I can reach into the empty air and clutch.
The ending is fitting it’s just like the start
Covering a bed with blood and waiting for the last beat to come.
I haven’t felt this heart beat
So fast yet so slow,
Since that time before,
That both you and I know
I shall never break the fourth wall,
My act is one of tradition one that cannot change,
The act lives on even when I’m gone,
The act that I have always made,
This show shall continue for years to come,
As it has in years gone by,
Let the fourth wall crumble
When the time comes
But now let that wall grow higher than ever
Separating life from death
A claw sharp as a razor pierces your skin,
That red liquor of hell pours once more and you know where you’ve been.
You fall onto your knees as the second claw sinks in,
You reach out and fall you miss the taste of that shitty cheap gin.
The claws pull on you and your skin rips and splits,
Your deformed body dragged through dirt and mud and you loose your wits.
Then you’re back again where you started,
The claws have saved you from death,
The claws have dragged you back to deaths door for the last time this time.