I thought I’d moved beyond,
To a place that let me be,
But the truth is I hadn’t left,
And it’s still destroying me.
I can’t act like the man I want,
Nor the woman I’ll never be,
Because the world hasn’t space for that,
And there’s no one else like me.
I decided I was better really,
Not knowing what better meant I had to be,
And I’m here again, not healing,
And it’s all because of me.
I tried to move on and forget,
But no one forgets what will always be,
And the romances I do have,
They’re never what’s right for me.
It’s okay if we fall and lie and trip,
In life we don’t end up at the top,
But there’s something about my life,
And it’s all about to stop.